THE WIND OF THE NIGHT
When we first met and you proposed...
I told myself: "This guy is crazy".
I couldn't believe you.
What is he looking for?
But later I realized I wanted you and said...
"Even if its for the money, I'll pay.
Anyway, I'm not taking it to the grave".
So I told myself: "I'll give all"
And I wasn't thinking about money but about me.
And now you are the one pulling back.
Tie your hair. I like you austere.
With your glasses.
You like it?
Yes.
And would you like a some sex?
Come here.
You are beautiful.
I lost a daughter 8 years ago.
She died at birth.
And now I can't have children.
She was the first and didn't survive.
It's sad.
Yes.
We go through a part of the way together...
and then maybe...
Why do you tell me this?
Because its the true, don't you think so?
No.
If every time we began we though about the end, then...
I don't think about the future.
If I thought about the future I wouldn't be here with you.
I would.
I just saw a sensual girl leaving the building.
All she emanated, her age...
all that has hurt me.
I thought you could fall in love with her.
But its crazy to torture yourself like that.
What girl?
I haven't seen a pretty girl in this building.
And me, why did you chose me?
Stop torturing yourself, please.
You really want it?
- Have I made you sad? - No, why?
Do you want us to drop it?
You're crazy!
Then, why did you tell me that before?
It crossed my mind. Sometimes I'm a fool.
- Thanks. Goodbye. - Goodbye.
Kiss me.
Stop! You'll make me drop the icecream!
Maybe I'll leave tomorrow.
- And where are you going? - To Naples.
I have to inaugurate a statue I made for a construction.
But I'll call you.
When will you be back?
I don't know if I have an open ticket.
I'll tell you when I find out.
You must be proud. It's the first time, right?
Yes, sure.
Yes.
Do you want us to be together longer this night?
I can try to fix it.
This night I can't, I have a lot to do.
When I come back, if you want...
I don't want you to leave.
Me neither. But it's important. Anyway...
I could have arranged to go with you, but now so sudden...
But it's still possible, because he doesn't suspect.
He usually travels without me and so do I.
I thought about it, but I thought it would be difficult for you.
I didn't want to get you in trouble.
Plus, I wasn't sure then.
It's a pity, because I really want to.
And you?
Of course.
Taxi!
Paul!
It's very good.
I don't know.
Here it is fine. This side is more forced.
Something bothers me, I should have cut a bit more.
But it's done now.
Now let's move on.
Wait.
Could you take Paul to the Naples airport?
- Paul? - Paul, my assistant.
- Why don't you take him? - Because I must stay here.
I still have work to do.
- Could you? - Yes.
I'm a bit disappointed. It's a bit annoying, don't you think?
What is?
Art is not that: the presence of the mayor, the prefect, all that.
It's depressing, don't you think?
- Where are we exactly? - Positano.
- Have you been here before? - I lived here for a year.
- Oh, yeah? What did you do? - Nothing.
We were 5 or 6 in a house. We lived.
When?
In the 69.
- And in the 68, where were you? - In Paris.
- So you were in the revolution? - Like the rest.
- And did you believe in it? - Yes. No.
Shall we?
Wait. I'll take a picture.
And in the 68 what did you do, beside the manifestations?
Did you put bombs or something like that?
We were revolutionaries.
And we you are a revolutionary, you make a revolution.
Yes.
Actually "being" was enough.
Yes, a bit like me. Anyway, like I want to be.
Will I search a solution, I study.
I'm taking a computer course focused on Fine Arts.
But with the crisis nobody buys paintings or sculptures.
I will not risk myself...
and I'll do architecture.
That way I can be your assistant.
Assistant like with Jean?
Well, yes.
You know, architecture is the same, there's not much work.
- I'll buy cigarettes? Want some? - No.
Can I ask you something?
Could I go back with you tomorrow?
I won't be in Paris 'till the day after tomorrow.
It's fine with me.
- You have anything to do in Paris? - No.
So take a plane later.
Go to Pompeii and Herculano.
Take advantage.
Yes, but I have to go back.
I can lie about losing the plane, understand?
So I can take the time to think. Do you want me to explain?
No, it isn't necessary.
Serge.
Thanks a lot.
Well ok, but I don't take you to the end don't be angry then.
Will you abandon me in a parking lot!
It could happen.
What do electroshocks do?
They burn the brain.
Why did they gave them to you?
After 68 some ended in prison.
Others in a disciplinary battalion.
And others in the psychiatric ward.
They gave you electroshocks for participating in may 68?
Not exactly, but that's what happened.
Do they tie you when they give you the electroshocks?
Yes, they tie you to a lead bed, above a machine.
In an electroshocks machine.
But one must resist, so the guys must be...
Yes, they're two or three. They grab you. You resist.
You fight.
So they take you by the force to a room.
It's a nightmare, all that. You don't know what they'll do.
Yes, you see a machine with buttons everywhere.
They tie you with straps to a lead bed.
Fuck! How it hurts when you wake up!
I felt so much pain that I pissed near the barbed wire.
Because I wanted to...
- Finish once for all? - Yes.
It wasn't electrified?
No.
It must had been beautiful this house.
Do you want to buy it to retire?
By the way! In Ravelo's work...
- I don't want to talk about work. - Ok.
If you talk to me about work you make me thing about work.
I prefer to think about other stuff.
Ok?
Ok.
Don't have a radio?
No. When I drive I listen to the motor.
- You wife is an architect too? - I don't have a wife.
Did you have one?
Did she leave you?
She killed herself.
Do you think my generation have stagnated in your generation?
I can't say. I don't know many. Why do you ask?
I have the impression I am going crazy.
I no longer see the world as it is, but like it was.
Do you ever drink alcohol?
I drank.
- Very much? - A lot.
And what else?
Everything.
This also?
Heroin?
- Do you want to die? - No.
Don't worry. I control it perfectly.
I've heard that you don«t drive a Porsche, you pilot it.
But what's the difference between driving and piloting?
Be happy to be driving.
Go out this way.
There's something I'd like to see.
It's not bad. What is it?
An unfinished palace.
The italians were as good with unfinished as finished things.
It's strange, you always seem to be saying two things at a time.
Better to say it all, no?
You are sharp!
Sharp is the last person.
What are you doing?
Nothing. I'm not sharp. I know how to drive, so I drive.
But slower, alright?
Alright.
But how was all exactly?
How could these guys maintain the student control?
They made meetings.
Like politicians.
The old told the young...
"Come, we've waited since 1936".
They were all old.
Old anarchist, great.
There was a room aside...
where the power was.
A student left. It was all a stage up.
He knocked on the wall and said...
everyone lower their voice and he said...
"The password".
There was one who said: "To Denfert-Rochereau! Tomorrow!"
"Tomorrow at what hour?" Then one guy would said: "23 hours!"
"¡23 hours tomorrow, Denfert! We'll be 3.000. Dismissed!"
And they organized everything without the police knowledge?
Without them knowing.
- And everytime was somewhere new? - Yes.
Next day I arrived at Denfert it was hallucinating.
There were workers with shovels ripping the traffic lights.
Hello, you are calling Jerome and Solange.
We're not home.
You can leave a message.
Jerome? It's Serge.
I guess you are vacationing with your family.
I wanted to talk to you, but maybe its better this way.
I'm leaving.
And when you find out officially...
Everything is ready, you'll find the papers in my desk.
Give dad a kiss for me.
And one for you also.
Auto-Deliverance
Is everything alright?
¡Oh, sorry!
Is it a prescription drug?
- Yes, nothing important. - Is it serious?
No, its not really serious.
Are you sure? I can go...
- I can go buy the same. - What's wrong with you?
Nothing, I dropped it, I'm sorry.
What's wrong with you?
No, nothing, I took a bit of...
The streets are full of guys selling stuff.
I couldn't resist.
I wanted to invite you to have a drink.
Someone of my generation...
Would surely admire you.
I exaggerate.
But it fascinates us because the drugs of our generatiion...
don't cause hallucinations.
Your brain never explodes.
That the big difference I feel between you and me...
about this experience.
Yes, I've had coke..
It made me feel a little weird.
Heroin is for puking.
You crawl through the floor, you can't get up.
I've never really taken off.
And when I talk to people from your generation...
They've always left reality. Do you know what I mean?
I don't know, take crack, you never really take off.
It's like a lighter inside the head...
but it doesn't last.
It's shit.
You never take off.
I think the real difference...
in my times, to get stoned...
was wanting to be alone.
But LSD was something else. It was a horror.
- And your girlfriend also took it? - Yes.
- Did you fuck? Could you? - I've never fucked.
I have never fucked.
- And then? - I usually don't talk of this.
Did you talk with them about them?
With them yes.
Not with the rest? Not with me?
That's right.
So let's not talk about it.
If you wanna talk, talk.
- But you don't talk about it. - No.
But why?
Because for me women are sacred.
"Sacred". What a word!
I don't have other.
But what means sacred to you?
Intimate? Private?
No. It's what is saved. What's left when nothing else is left.
Well, goodbye!
- Have you thought about me? - Yes, I've thought about you.
- What did you think? - I desired you.
What do you mean?
I don't know, I wanted to see your breasts.
Liar.
Tell me.
No, later.
- You're not angry anymore? - No.
I'll give you a check for the telephone.
No.
- No, I don't want it. - Come on!
No, sure. Please!
It's important we can call each other.
Yes, but it's important that you don't pay.
Thanks.
Is the best martini in Paris. Taste.
You like it?
Yes.
It's here.
The windows on the third floor.
- Coming? - Are you crazy?
But why? You're wrong.
My husband is quite open. He sees all kind of people.
Well, maybe, but, why me?
I want you to meet my husband!
- Are you scared? - No.
Come! I'm not afraid of anything!
And you?
Let's go.
Kiss me.
He felt a great admiration for the athletes...
And he had a speech about sports...
about the interior of the athlete...
about the future, his psychology...
his suffering.
It's also a look into himself.
When he talks about the athlete...
that athlete dying inside...
the one he never was...
alcoholic as he was...
he lived his degradation day by day...
and thought about it with great clearity.
I usually compare Blondin...
with someone who lived his life...
and wrote his work...
lamenting not being someone else.
Understand?
Paul?
Do you mind me calling you Paul?
There's people that suffer...
for not having been a poet or an artist.
He, Blondin...
suffered for not being an athlete...
and thought about suicide...
in front of athletes he considered magnificent.
Better than him.
Could you turn that down a little?
We can't hear ourselves!
Its strange, I always thought he was a bit fascist.
Absolutely.
He was a right anarchist.
And because everybody then was from the left...
He had to be from the right.
But he wasn't pro-nazi.
Absolutely.
All the intellectuals were from the left.
It was a consequence from the war.
From the horrors of those six years.
He loathed that attitude.
He found it sheep-like...
because even many...
married the cause...
many others...
simply pretended to be left.
He decided to live his way.
Live his intellectual life away from all that.
He didn't have the notion of collectivity.
He was interested in each individual.
Also...
he valued friendship a lot.
It's fun.
He told his wife before marrying...
"I won't offer you a life of luxury...
but I'll present you my friends".
What something else?
No, I have to go.
Thanks.
Come whenever you want.
Shall I give you two kisses?
Long live anarchy!
- I know a doctor. - Well call him!
I know a doctor around the corner. I'm gonna go for him.
Go get him!
Loosen the belt. It hurts.
If I loosen it, you'll lose blood.
Yes, but it hurts. Please, loosen it a little.
If I loosen it you die. You don't want to die.
I'm sure you don't want to die.
It hurts. Loosen it.
Free me from this!
Think in everything you haven't seen yet.
In what remains to be seen.
- It hurts. - Have you been to the desert?
I don't care.
- Trust me. - You are hurting me.
Trust me.
I'm feeling bad!
It's here. Please...
What are you doing to me?
No!
I would like to drink something.
Are you ok?
Yes?
Is it white wine?
How fool am I!
Speak.
Yes?
Hello, Paul.
Yes, and you?
I can't.
No, I'm going to Berlin.
Would you give me your phone number?
Yes.
I'll call you.
See you later.
- Were you afraid? - Yes.
- Have you spoken to her again? - No.
Are you afraid it might start again?
Yes, she is the kind you leave for five minutes to buy the paper...
and you don't know how you'll find her.
She is bad, but she is strong.
I've felt something strange.
I don't know if this always happen with people who want to comitte suicide...
but one has the impression they're not there anymore.
Like if they were already in the other side.
You're going to fast.
There's no speed limit here.
I don't know.
But you are going to fast. Please don't go too fast.
By the way, why are we going to Berlin?
Work.
What have you done lately?
I've left heroin.
- Since when? - Since last time.
I must have a clear head if I want to be your assisnt. Remember?
- Are you going to follow thru? - Yes.
- Do you swear? - If you want, yes.
Then say it.
I swear. I swear to you.
I swear to you.
There's a bar there. Do you wanna stop for 5 minutes?
It's been three hours.
Come, there's no police.
Fuck, it's still going. You should had seen how he spoke...
the Obersturmführer.
I can imagine what he did in 1940.
I thought your generation had forgotten all about it.
- But he's not a nazi sympathizer. - Can you calm your friend, please?
Aufwiedersehen! Good bye!
You've acted like a moron.
I was a moron yesterday.
Do you forgive me?
It's quite good! Have you seen it?
- Come on. - You only find like here in Paris.
- I'll stay with you. - No, I have a date.
I don't have money. Can you leave 200... Very kind.
I'll give it back.
Danke schen.
- See you later. - Yes.
Hallo. Gutten Tag.
You speak franzsisch?
Wait, I don't understand.
Wieviel...
Want wieviel?
Zweihundert?
Zweihundert francs. Ok?
Y'a mein zimmer.
Danke.
What's up?
- How you been? - Good. And you?
Me?
What a problem I have, don't you think?
This thing about my girl.
Do you have news of her?
I haven't called. I could have, but...
I'm afraid. She is another person...
and I'm really afraid.
She has had money always. She is quite burgeoise and not stupid...
but I think she wants to fuck everything up.
Maybe she loves you and that's why you are afraid.
That wouldn't scare me.
Why did she did it?
I don't know.
I'm not amazed, but the reason I don't know.
Are you ok?
- What's wrong? - I'm fine, I'm fine.
Are you alone?
No, thanks.
She is Helene.
Serge.
- Hello. - Hello.
I'm dying of hunger. And you?
- Shall we have dinner? - Yes.
I never knew how to eat with sticks.
Do you want a fork?
Waiter!
- Your friend Serge is a sculpter also? - Can you bring a fork?
Forget it.
I'm not hungry.
I'm dead tired.
I'll go for my backpack. Can you lend me your keys?
Thanks.
You're not angry, right? I am really tired.
Yes, yes, you've said that.
Good bye, Paul.
Good bye.
It's strange, but I have the impression of being here...
some time ago.
Me too. Long time ago.
What am I saying!
Try this, it's delicious.
Try it.
I would like to stay with you.
Thanks.
I would like that too.
- Can you wait two minutes? - Yes.
16 francs and 30 cents, please.
Thanks.
I would like a room.
A marriage bed?
A marriage bed.
I'm nervous.
It's silly, but its the first time.
I'm also nervous.
Better this way?
Yes.
When you are 40, to make love with someone younger is great.
It gives you wings.
You feel admired, superior.
It makes you strong.
You take advantage of the other's youth.
Everything is a game.
Then it is not.
The balance is lost.
You are at the mercy of the one you love.
You look how he's watching.
You are always under the impression that he's watching when you're not looking.
You ask yourself...
if everything you see in the mirror. All those details...
the belly...
the neck...
I'm not saying this to make it less.
Everything that hurts.
It difficult to accept oneself.
We don't know each other...
but it is like if we knew each other from long ago.
When making love, one is alone.
When making love is very intense, one is alone.
It's precisely because we are both alone, that together we form a third.
I would like to know...
that if when you asked me to stay...
was it because...
Because when I saw you in the corner I thought...
What is she doing here at 11?
Usually I am not that lost.
Oh, no?
Idiot!
No, but...
Yes?
Nothing. You wouldn't understand.
I'm fine with you.
Yes.
Jerome...
I've decided...
to leave...
this life.
Don't be sad.
It's the only solution.
Take care of dad...
like only you know.
Your brother that loves you.